Sunday, August 31, 2014

The Night Shift...and my growing respect for those who work it

I've begun working nights twice a week. I've never fully appreciated people who work the night shift, but now I do! Going an entire night without sleep is quite the challenge! Coming home and trying to sleep during the day can be equally challenging.

There are a couple of perks though. I like the feeling I get when I've made it to dawn, the world is so peaceful and quiet, and most people haven't even started their days yet. Driving home the opposite way of the traffic is kinda cool are done with work for the day (hopefully), while the rest of the world is just beginning. I like the second wind you get (after being so exhausted) when suddenly the night is over. Climbing into bed is the best though, when Chris is still just waking up and we get to be together again after a long night apart.

I foolishly struggle after coming home, when my curtains are closed till after noon. I worry that people will think I'm lazy and high maintenance for sleeping so late. I may be semi groggy for the next 24 hours after my night shifts (and others I am in contact with won't understand why), but my caring husband makes me feel like I have just run a marathon, and deserve a medal for my efforts.

I'm starting to not care what strangers think of me, and I will try not to just assume a person is a lazy when I see them sleeping past noon.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Psalm 10

I've been observing the world and the news a bit more lately and been becoming discouraged. This Psalm has re-put things in perspective for me.

The wicked:

-persecute the poor (vs. 2)
-boast of heart's desire (vs. 3)
-bless the greedy (vs. 3)
-renounce the Lord (vs. 3)
-have a proud countenance (vs. 4)
-do not seek the Lord (vs. 4)
-do not have God in any of their thoughts (vs. 4)
-always prospering (but with a false sense of security, and are not aware of God's control) (vss. 5 + 6)
-sneer at enemies (vs. 5)
-have mouths full of cursing, deceit, and oppression (vs. 7)
-have trouble and iniquity under their tongues (vs. 7)
-sit in lurking places (vs. 8)
-murder the innocent (vs. 8)
-lie in wait like a lion to catch the poor (vs. 9)
-say in their hearts "God will forget, He will not require an account" (vss. 11, 13)

But God:

-has seen (vs. 14)
-observes trouble and grief (vs. 14)
-repays it [trouble and grief] by His hand (vs. 14)
-is a helper to the fatherless (vs. 14)
-breaks the arm of the wicked and evil man (vs. 15)
-seeks out wickedness tills He finds none (vs. 15)
-is the King forever and ever (vs. 15)
-has nations perish out of His land (vs. 16)
-hears desire of the humble (vs. 17)
-prepares their [the humbles'] hearts (vs. 17)
-causes His ear to hear (vs. 17)
-does justice to the fatherless and oppressed (vs. 18) that the man of the earth may oppress no more. (vs. 18)

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Picking Weeds.

This isn't too out of the box, because I'm pretty sure God allowed weeds to grow so that we could make spiritual analogies with them. But's that's just me. :)

All my life one of my least favorite jobs in the world was picking weeds! I remember hating sitting on my knees in the hot sun, getting my hands all dirty, and not even being particularly sure what I supposed to pick or not! And I remember that it always seemed to take SO LONG!

The other day however I ended up doing some gardening (more like weeding) for someone, and realized how enjoyable it can be. For the first time in a while I was sitting in the sun, doing something that didn't take much effort, and getting to enjoy the outdoors. I'm a bit OCD too, so this was totally up my alley. It was also the first time in a while I'd been able to sit in a quiet environment, and God immediately got my attention and got me thinking.

So again, this is nothing ground breaking and no new revelations; the Bible talks plenty about weeds, but here are just a few things that I noticed.

#1. Weeds sometimes look very much like the real plants. Sometimes a weed can be mistaken for a plant, so one needs to look very carefully when deciding whether to pull, or not to pull. For me, this is something that happens in my life fairly often. I tend to always be a serving "Martha" slaving away in the kitchen with a bad attitude, wondering why in the world Jesus appreciates the "lazy" Mary over me. Sometimes those weeds resemble good things done for His kingdom, but I need to get rid of anything that isn't the real thing (no matter how authentic it looks). For me though, this is a lot easier said than done!

#2. Weeds growing in the middle of a sturdy group of plants are easy to recognize and very easy to pull, since their roots haven't been able to get too deep! The more on track I am, the harder it is to get weeds tangled up in my life. Weeds growing around the outskirts of plants are harder to pull. Again...super easy to say, much harder to live out!

#3. Neglected weeds get out of control! There were a few bunches of weeds that were hidden away under some tall plants. Their roots were crazy big, very deep, and pulled up a lot of surrounding dirt with them. Which leads to...

#4. Sometimes pulling weeds makes a pretty big mess, and can pull a lot of dirt, and sometimes even other plants with it. Even though that hurts a bit, it's totally worth it. Kinda like pruning.....

So yeah, I'm no weed expert, I just noticed some things and needed the reminders. God definitely uses the little things to keep me on track.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Still Here...Still Blogging...69 Days into Marriage

I do enjoy blogging, really I do, I just sometimes can't figure out what in the world is happening in my life that people would really find worth reading...or sometimes I worry that writing about my life is simply a bit conceited. It didn't feel that way when I was in Zambia, keeping folks back home current on my life and work, it just seems different now.

At the same time I personally enjoy keeping a life journal, cementing lessons learned, sharing some laughs, praises, and joys. So here I go again, after taking a few months off; still in "the next step" of my life, still learning many, many things, still falling, still getting back up.

The last few months have held many new roles for me: a bride, a wife, an "Adirondack-ian", a dispatcher at Paul Smith's College, an Elder-care assistant. Life is full and busy, but that still leaves time for us to hike, canoe, run, and enjoy life in one of the most beautiful areas in the world. Two months of being married still leaves me very far away from being the perfect wife and knowing everything there is to know (will I ever??), but the honeymoon and marriage lessons continue as I live my day to day life with my Blue Prince, who daily strives to be a good, godly, understanding (which at times is a challenge!), and patient husband.

God is good, and so is life!